It's a cryptic morning ....

"temporary reclusivity" (yes I know I just made it up) - the mindset which I find myself desperately searching for.

Ever get that overwhelming sensation where everything's just too much?
I guess most of it's fear, and doubt.
Just a little scared of the transitions.
Getting far too comfortable n my well-worn little ruts.
I know what I don't want to be, it's the details of what I do want that seem to allude me.

I didn't go to college today, just didn't feel up to it.
Have assessment due today that isn't done; had thought about pulling an all-nighter to finish it but sleep was more important - that's a change in attitude once upon a time a night's worth of sleep was little price to pay to finish assessment.
And today, well I should have been working away finishing that piece of assessment... but I wasn't.
It's a beautiful grey day, the sky is swollen with rain, the breeze has a light chill to it, there's the occassional chirp of a bird but other wise silence.
It's just beautiful.
I am happy, I know that, I can feel it ...
Can one be momentarily 'halted'?